Tooooooool Academy.

The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
absolutely, i'd do anything for you.

Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
yes

How do you feel about girls smoking?
i'm a girl and i like smoking

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
mmm, i miss you :(

What are you looking forward to?
friends coming over tonight!

Do you get mad easily?
it depends on the severity of the situation, but generally, no.

Can you keep a secret?
yes

Do you hate anyone?
no

When did you last throw up?
a long time ago, i don't even remember anymore.

Would you go out in public without getting dressed up or put together?
haha no. unless it's to the gym or if i'm just driving home.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
yes i want a boyfriend

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
ha. ha. um, it was spaghetti.

Is there a big difference between i love you and luv ya?
yes, i love you feels more sincere while luv ya is just kinda cute

If you could take something back what would it be?
all the times i opened my mouth and became the fool.

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
no, i've changed a lot.

What posters do you have on your wall?
flight of the conchords.

Ready for kids?
not yet

Ever been called a bitch?
no i don't think i have

Have you done anything sneaky lately?
no not too sneaky.

What should you be doing?
watching tv.

Have you ever had a best friend?
yes

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yeah

Do you care if people talk badly about you?
only if i care about their opinion of me.

Done anything illegal lately?

nope

Are you ticklish?
yesss

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
fuck yeah

What did you do today?
laundry, dishes, nap

Last time you were on the phone?
couple hours ago

Are you shy?
yes

Do you like music?
love it

How many websites do you visit daily?
maybe 5 or 6

What is something you're currently nervous about?
theology midterm next week

Have you had sex in the last 24 hours?
nope

Do you watch a lot of television?
sometimes

Do you watch a lot of movies?
meh

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
i like being with people but i do need my alone time.

Would you rather go out to eat or stay home?
either

Do you read books?
yes but i never have time anymore :(

Are you tired right now?
maybe a little

Do you think you'll get along better with your siblings when you get older?
i already get on with them pretty well.

Do you do your own laundry?
yeah

Do you spend more time watching TV or listening to music?
listening to music for sure

Would you rather give up the computer or the TV?
tv definitely

Do you like your handwriting? or Hate it?
i like it

Do you prefer canned or bottled soda?
cans taste so much better!

Have you ever seen High School Musical?
yeah the 1st 2.

How often do you go to the mall?
not very often

Do you enjoy computer games?
the sims

Are you close with your cousins?
no :(

Is your family tree confusing to explain?
not really, i don't think

Do you ever write in a journal or diary?
yeah

How many times have you had surgery?
none

Do you read any magazines ritually?
no but i like to buy fashion magazines every once in awhile

When was the last time you stepped in a church?
last sunday night

Well what do we have here.

This blog has apparently become the destination for lame ass surveys that I take because I'm bored. And here's another one.

Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?
No. I am at a completely different place in my life than any 18 year old I know.

When's the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
aggravation generally means unhappiness for me.

Would you ever smile at a stranger?
i do it all the time.

Is there someone mad, because you're dating/talking/married to the person you are with?
no, because i'm not dating/talking/married to anyone.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
no, i haven't really been listening to music today. just watching tv.

What exactly are you wearing now?
a dress. i wanted to feel pretty.

How often do you listen to music?
every day, usually when i'm getting ready in the morning or driving in my car.

Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
jeans way more than sweats.

Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010?
maybe not before 2010, but i do graduate in may of 10. that's a pretty dramatic change.

Have the cops ever came to your house?
my dad's a cop, so yes.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with an A?
yes. i wish i hadn't.

What about a K?
no.

What about a D?
no.

Can money buy happiness?
money can buy security, but security does not equal happiness.

Can you drive a stick shift?
no, it's something i hope to learn before i die.

Do you care if people talk badly about you?
if i know them. if i don't know you then i don't really care what you say about me.

Are you going out of town soon?
not till thanksgiving. :(

When was the last time you cried?
i teared up a little this afternoon while watching the amityville horror, of all things.

Have you ever told someone you loved them?
yes, quite a few someones.

If you could change your eye color would you?
i think i would make them grey, or green.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes!

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
my sisters and my mom.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
i've been alone with my insecurities all day long.

Is it cute when girls kiss you on your forehead?
it's cuter when boys do it.

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
no

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
my room mate.

What are you sitting on right now?
couch

Does anyone regularly - other than family - tell you they love you?
yeah, my room mate says it a lot.

Have you ever wanted someone you can't have?
yes.

A random person yells to you "aybaybay." You say?
probably nothing, but i might give them the finger.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
mandy and jonny.

Do you get a lot of colds?
no but i bought vitamins and tissues today just in case.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
american apparel.

Does anyone hate you?
i don't think so.

Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

ha no.

Do you like watching scary movies?
yeah, kind of.

Do you want your tongue pierced?
No

If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
8th grade. it was pretty unimportant.

Did you have a dream last night?
yes, but i forget what it was about.

Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand?
yeah

When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
yesterday?

Do you ever delete people off your facebook?
rarely

Do you think you'll be married in 5 years?
i hope...

Do you think someone has feelings for you?
no

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
yeah i'm probably still very much the same.

Could you see yourself with someone forever?
Yes. i just don't know who yet.

What does your last text say?
7 samurai.

Whats bothering you?
i don't feel beautiful, or worthy of being loved.

Ever been cheated on?
no

How old will you be on your next birthday?
22

Looking forward to anything?
getting to see my family soon. :)

Moving

Oh yeah, moved to tumblr.

jazzpantzz.tumblr.com

(607): I just want you to know that I'm so glad you are in my life and I love you very much. :)

Mmm, I love you too! :)

I hate my life today.

A list of the reasons why I hate my life today.

1. It's not Friday.
2. I don't feel loved.
3. I don't feel like anyone appreciates my love.
4. Textbooks are expensive.
5. Classes are too long.
6. I have to work tomorrow.
7. I'm not interesting, and I don't know interesting people.
8. Interesting people aren't interested in me.
9. I feel like giving a big "FUCK YOU" to the world today.
10. I just want to listen to hippie music and read Helter Skelter and watch the incense smoke swirl in the air.

Go watch Rocket Science. I kind of like the soundtrack and the boy is adorable.

When I said I hate what I've become, I lied, I hated who I was.

Oh, if you could only see me now.
You would hardly even recognize yourself.
When I'm feeling particularly self destructive,
I like to smoke a cigarette or two.
But now I'm starting to wonder how healthy that is,
because I've been feeling the need to smoke a lot recently.
I bought a pack of smokes tonight.
Smoked one cigarette and now I feel like a fool.
I'm ruining myself from the inside out,
and I don't know if I can stop.
People are useless and I hate feeling alone.
Ugh I don't know what to do.

Retraction.

I just want to apologize for all the mean things I blogged about you.
Calling you a liar and a typical whore.
You're not those things.
You're a good, albeit confused, person, and I love you to death.
I'm sorry, and I really hope you don't hold anything I did against me.
I love having you as my friend.